like why do both my wrists decide that today would be a good day to have raging cts
I have like, 2 hours to do both my math and my english class due in the morning but im feeling like shit and that im going to fail english. cool.
Being an MCR fan is all fun and games until you have to tell someone in real life that your favorite band is My Chemical Romance
our generation as grandparents
sigh i have to take a break from my homework because my left hand is going a little numb and it’s hard to type
well, my essay isn’t due until 11:59 tomorrow night so i may just do a little bit more tonight and focus on the homework due in class.
hhhhhhh i shouldn’t be using my computer so much for homework, but it’s faster to do :/
cockiness is so attractive to me in a way and it’s so irritating. like it’s annoying. and it annoys me. but the kind of expression and body language that comes with it. the self-satisfied attitude. the smug comments. the eye rolling. the smirking. “come and get me” hand gestures during a fight. eyebrow raising with an air of superiority. it’s just like. fuck you. i’m annoyed right now. i am so annoyed right now. but oh my fuck i am also so very, very attracted right now
So i messed up and couldn’t take my quiz today, so Im taking it tomorrow after school
anyways, things to do:
holy shit so whenever the garbage people come, it always sounds like apocolypse. there’s just shrieking, alarms, loud bangs, and i always think they’re going to hit the house and that’s just the truck
especially this one time, oh my god, they apparently weren’t aware of the new bump the complex put up, so when they went over it, the house shook, and I woke up thinking we were in an earthquake
Good ol’ times when they were killing people and laughing about it
Also I’m pretty sure that’s how Heavy’s sisters discovered his colleagues but help everything i touch becomes cheesy
Tianna. Mohawk. Longhouse. Akwesasne. Awesome. Photo by Dallas Goldtooth
Hello! How are you? I hope you’re doing okay. I hope you’re taking care of yourself to the best of your abilities.
I don’t really know what else to say tho. I’m sorry.
I hope you have a good halloween because that’s coming up soon and I have no idea what my costumes are going to be. I know I’m going to Freddy Krugar, but like in a sweater I found at Forever 21, and in a skirt, torn up leggings or tights, and your new boots that you got. All I need now is the hat, gloves/hand props, and makeup :v
Do you like costumes? Do you like making them? Do you like cosplaying?
What kind of music do you like? Do you go to concerts often? What was your first concert? Have you even had your first concert?
Did you know my boyfriend wants to break up with me because of my music taste? How lame, right??? Especially for a sad lil pop punk emo boy. (he isn’t of course, but we joke about it because music is one of the few things we don’t agree on most of the time)
How’s it going in your life right now? What’s happening? How was your day? Do you remember all of it? Or just some of it? How tired are you? Or are you not tired at all?
Strike up a conversation with me, I’d love to hear from anyone who wants to answer any of these questions :v Everything written is open ended since I didn’t write this with anyone in mind, just anyone who wants to write back.
Stay cool, nerd u.u
Dear Future Me,
I hope you continue to discipline yourself with school work since so far in math you’ve been able to keep up with grade A work. English is hard, I know, but essays need to be done!! I know you hate writing them, but you know you don’t hate writing in general. Keep it up.
Take things one step at a time. You know Ethan is transfering within the next year or so, and it’ll put a strain on your relationship not being able to see him that often, but it’ll also be a test. A good test. By that time hopefully we’ll both have cars and can drive the freeway.
Ethan has always been there for you from the start of your relationship, way before he asked you out. Remind him constantly about how much you love him and appreciate him and how you’re there for him too, because you love him. You truly love him, and he’s helped you through tough times.
Reminds your friends who have stuck with you that you love them as well. They mean too much to you to just say “yeah I guess you’re okay” and leave it at that. Feelings are hard to express, but it’s good to start learning.
Don’t stop reading. It’s hard to do it in your spare time, especially since you’re trying so hard to keep up with school work, but books are always good to keep yourself calm. It’s been that way since forever, and it’s good to remember this.
Learn how to do some domestic duties. You’re going to be transfering as well in a few years, and the college you hope to transfer to means you’re finally going to have your own space. Please think about a roommate, or at least someone who can come check up on you from time to time. But maybe your mental health will be better than it is now.
Save up money for more teeth work. Your jaw is slowly moving around back to it’s previous position, but this doesn’t mean more jaw work, it just means back to braces. And braces aren’t so bad! Maybe you can even do invisilign!!!
Also save up for visiting North Dakota at one point. Fargo may not be what you want it to be, even if it is your birth city, and North Dakota is definitely not what you want your birth state to be.
Comics are good to get back into too. Saving money in general is good, and hopefully you can learn to stop complusive shopping. Maybe you’ll even get your room cleaned, like an actual clean room. Not one where you can see some of your floor while the rest of it is covered in dust.
Make friends. Keep the ones you have now because they’ve stuck with you this long, and it’s important to remember that. You’re not alone. You’ve never been alone, you’ve just forgotten sometimes. And being alone is okay too, because you’ve learned to rely on yourself more, but remember that when offered help, it’s okay to take it. You’re not weak for doing so.
Embrace your identity. Keep experimenting more. There’s more to you than you know and right now, I’m shy and scared. Through time, maybe you can finally find yourself. Keep enjoying the things that make you happy and try new things. You’re so picky, it annoys not only yourself, but also other people. Push yourself. Take criticism and run with it. Do what you want, but make sure it’s what you actually want. Make a collage of all the people who inspire you and pinpoint why they do. Maybe they don’t even have a reason, maybe you just like them in general.
Just don’t be ashamed of anything. Change happens, and most of the time it’s for the best. Stand up for youself. Stand up for other people. Become more active in all the communities you’re in.
Do what makes you happy, because you’ve gone through a lot in your past years and you know what you shouldn’t do or repeat ever again. Don’t just forgive and forget; acknowledge and let go.
Past You | October 19th, 2014
I will write about the following, leave one in my ask box.
Dear person I hate,
Dear person I like,
Dear ex boyfriend,
Dear ex girlfriend,
Dear ex bestfriend,
Dear future me,
Dear past me,
Dear person I’m jealous of,
Dear person I had a crush on,